Reflections

The importance of a spiritual practice…

20200303_110840I was thinking today about just how important my spiritual practice is for me.

I can quite easily get bogged down In trying to find solutions to situations that lead to more frustration and angst.

Trying to desperately find answers and manage circumstances. The answer comes in letting go of trying to control.

For me, my spiritual practice is where I feel at home and at peace. That doesn’t mean that my life is always smooth and without suffering but it means that I have a place within myself to come “home” to, even when I might abandon myself.

I have been chanting for a few years now and this has very tangible benefits for me. I witness and feel the space in conversations and behaviours.

Herein lies Freedom.

If I spend time every morning with the God of my understanding the day tends to go better.

I’m wondering how you “start” your day and how this impacts you in positive ways?

inner child

Your not who you think you are…

 

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Who are you?

Such a simple question but one that can be hard to answer.

I know for me that part of my journey has been to “unfold” who I am without needing to mould myself into other people’s expectations of me.

I call it the chameleon affect.

Trying to always “blend in” with my surroundings.

I also understand that this can stem from a “deep routed” sense of not being ok with self.

I remember as a child creating fairytale lands of magic powers and invincibility which I now know was in an attempt to escape the harsh reality of my less than perfect upbringing and often tumultuous home environment.

I created places and worlds where I would be “safe”.. All powerful and connected to something other than what was happening around me.

Today I allow myself to escape in healthier ways.

Movies, books, art, colouring books and poetry are ways that I allow my inner child to feel acknowledged.

This is important for me especially¬† with the sometimes over whelming responsibility of having to “adult”.

When I connect with myself through creative expression and to my inner child, I can then go into the world with a greater confidence and able to remain consistently in self approval.

I can look at myself and know who I am.

Back to my original question..

Who are you?

Who “can” you be and what part needs your attention today?

How would it be to listen to the inner child within and see what they need?

Even just for while before you need to be a responsible adult again.

 

With love and light.

 

Paul.

Reflections

The Power of Imperfection

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I wanted today to share my thoughts on being imperfect.

I read a beautiful quote from a book called “The Instruction Manual for Receiving God” by Jason Shulman today.

God would not be God if what God needed was our “perfection”. We would not be humans if all we learned was to awaken a single time.

We need to know that we can awaken over and over again, and that in every state we love or hate, in every falling down or rising up, God is with us…

So many times I have fallen short of a self imposed goal or a new ideal or approach, due to not being able to do it perfectly.

In my “own mind” I have created this conflict. The self imposed perfection that limits me and actually blocks me from “connection” with my own understanding of a Higher Power (God)

This conflict can manifest in many ways and also has a physiological aspect.

Who do I need to be perfect for?

Who am I trying to impress?

Where did I learn that perfection = love?

What would happen if I showed up, just as I am in all my wounded glory?

Sometimes I am fully aware that these patterns are unconscious and not accessible but when they start to show themselves it is worth exploring these limiting beliefs in which ever way suits you. It could be a life coach, a friend, a therapist, or simply spending time each day in quiet and reflection.

Maybe its just OK to show up, turn up and be who you are in this very moment?

Reflections

The Power of stillness…

This morning I had a deep realisation that everything is ok in the world, in me and in my relationships…

I had put down needing to “do” anything or to achieve anything..

Part of my past and make up is the need to “do” and a compulsion to keep myself busy as a way of distraction from myself.

Sometimes distraction is needed but not today…today I choose to connect with the part of me that feels inadequate and in an attempt to fix this will normally busy myself hoping that someone will notice what I have done …and say “well done”

We all need to feel acknowledged which is a part of human emotion and existense.

However when I am busy trying to attach my worth to externals that in itself can cause disconnection within me.

I recognise this as a deeply engrained and familiar pattern.

I am sitting here enjoying music, in the sun enjoying being in the moment and recognising the growth in my life.

I also acknowledge the space for feelings as they arise not needing to change them but gently observing them.

“The war is over, I no longer need to fight with myself” today I let in the light and embrace what is…all is well”